Hi Lorna - thanks for remembering.

I'm not really coping very well at the moment. Would you mind if we don't make an arrangement to meet? I feel so bad saying this as it would have been lovely to see you, but at the moment everything feels like a huge hurdle.

School is lots of pressure - nothing new but lots of stress all the same. I've had 2 lots of Cimzia now but don't feel any different and am having big problems with knees for the first time. Both very swollen and sore, and agony by the end of the day. I I'm also struggling with managing as my ex has paid nothing for over 18 months and with 4 still at home, 3 dependent, it is very demoralising. Add Mum and Dad into the mix and the days just start at 6am and never seem to end in anything other than exhaustion.

I'm about to start external exam marking and have agreed to 2 sets so the next 2 and a half months will be really busy. I need to do it but am also dreading it. As I'm doing KS2 sats and then GCSE I hope I can get one done before the other starts.

Sorry for going on - just wanted to say I am not being "funny". I just feel that everything is getting on top of me and meeting up should have been so good.

I hope you have a lovely weekend and that you're feeling stronger now and able to focus on the good memories of your dear Dad. I've not posted much as I feel so low but do come and read and I will look forward to hearing how it all goes.

Take care, Ailsa